I have been on a path of recovery for nearly a decade, and I love to help other women come into their own sense of empowerment and walk an aligned life that feels true to their core.
I would love to assist anyone who is wondering “Is this it? I’ve done all the right things, but I still feel like there’s more,” or any woman who questions if alcohol is perhaps not the best for her. For me, it wasn’t as simple as just changing to a positive mindset; it required structured and supported changes to overcome my powerful patterns.
I spent many years trying to manage my life and bring happiness to it: I obtained higher education degrees, had a successful career in public service, and appeared to be moving ahead. But inside I knew there was more to life.
Alcohol became a problem, but it was sporadic and I was able to maintain the things in life I strived for and I did not appear to lose anything on the outside. However, its use was enough to get me to reflect on if I was heading where I wanted:
Did I like myself?
I didn’t.
Was I showing up in the world as the woman I wanted to be?
I wasn’t.
While I wasn’t a daily drinker, its use was damaging to me and it caused me much shame. I needed help to stop and so I entered recovery and have maintained continuous sobriety since May 5, 2017.
While abstaining was the first necessary step to embracing my truth, mere cessation of alcohol alone did not fix me.
Through much deep work, I found that alcohol was but a symptom of a larger pattern. My patterns still reared their heads. Through an emotional bottom in sobriety, I had to deeply examine my thoughts, my beliefs, my influences, my traumas, etc. and learn how these affected me and how to transmute the ones that were harmful.
Through deepening my practices and listening to the voice inside me, I began to piece back a life of meaning. After nearly 20 years of practicing yoga, I was able to commit to a structured practice that filled me up. And from this, I was able to be guided to other resources, people, and places in nature that fulfilled me and led me to embody the woman I came to be.